The Cravings of an Aspiring Independent and Curious Mind

As someone on the journey towards financial and personal freedom, my cravings run deep. They are not just simple desires but a reflection of my aspirations and the path I am navigating through life. My deepest craving is for freedom—financial, bodily, and mental, from the approval of others. What I really yearn for is self-determination and the ability to shape my own destiny without relying on anyone else. My journey towards independence is not a sprint but a marathon, one that will continue until my very last breath, much like the cycle of reincarnation and rebirth I believe in. Here, I delve into these profound cravings and explore how they impact my life.

Craving Power

The desire for control and power is a significant part of my journey. It is a force that pushes me to take charge of my life and own it unapologetically. Despite being just 22 years old, I am already fighting to be myself, but it is a journey that is far from over. Patience is not naturally a virtue of mine; I am assertive and want what I want now. I am willing to do whatever it takes to reach my goals, recognizing that the path to success is often paved with determination and sacrifice.

Power, in this context, means having the ability to make decisions, shape my environment, and live according to my values and beliefs. It is about defining my own future and not letting external forces dictate my life. My current craving is to take it easy and live a low-stress life, which is something I have not fully achieved yet. My recent vaccine experience is a testament to this, where after receiving my Moderna shot, I experienced a sudden and very strong craving for a salad. This craving led me to consume an unprecedented amount of salads, and led me to incorporate beans into them to improve their taste. It is likely that my next vaccine might also bring about some unique cravings, albeit unpredictable ones that I have not experienced yet.

Secret Cravings

There are certain cravings that I keep to myself—things I could not build or attract on my own. One such secret craving is for an actual Nao robot. While this might seem a bit peculiar, the allure of having such a sophisticated and intelligent robot as a companion is something I find intriguing. I am considering taking a non-matriculated course in robotics and figuring out if there is a way to bring one back home with me, perhaps in a legal manner. However, the idea of possibly kidnapping or embezzling a robot for personal use is a thought I find unsettling, and I am left to ponder the ethics and legality of such actions.

Another thing that I often crave is cheese and onions together. These flavors, simple though they may be, hold a special place in my heart. Cheese and onions are a surprisingly delightful combination that I always look forward to, and I find myself craving this unique pairing regularly. Along with these cravings, I also enjoy dry Stoli martinis, finding them to be quintessentially indulgent and satisfying.

Conclusion

My life is a tapestry of desires, from the grand aspirations of financial and personal freedom to the simple delights of a good salad and a tasty drink. Each of these cravings, be they for freedom or influence, reflect my innermost thoughts and goals. They are quintessentially part of the journey that I am on, a journey that is meant to be experienced and lived through, moment by moment.